hey new entry

ok i dont want this one to be sad but i need some help so here it goes.....what do u do when you feel like you have lost everyone in your life.....cause for the past few months ive had that feeling deep inside me.......today i did some really really hard thinking and realized that things arent the same anymore......me and my mom use to be so close and now i feel like im do far from her...im scared to talk to her and i cant stand being around her cause all we do is disagree.......my friends are the most amazing ppl in my life and i havent treated them like i should........i miss hanging out with them so much and the weekend we went to chicago was the most fun i had  had in a long time....and i miss you guys so much and im so sorry......and then theres the one person you love more than anything.....the one you let your gaurd done to love cause you no he wouldnt hurt you like the last........and school starts and you get busy and you lose time for eachother........im sorry i havent been the same and i wish i could fix things and i wanna make them better...cause i dont no what i would do without you...and sorry to anyone that i missed things have been so different and i just wasnt ready for the change.......i guess things have to change even if your not ready....but there are just somethings that need to stay the same and i guess its taken me just a little to long to realize that.....sorry again for the sad entry but if you have any ideas that would be great.....ttyl...

Love ya :)

ok so who had a Happy New Year

ok well i did and it couldnt have been any better.....Spending the night with michael and the guys, kylie and kaitlyn, and some other ppl.....having some drinks....ppl getting sick after 2......playing drinking games....um...stuff i cant say...playing with a really cute baby....having a cold.......ppl in their boxers, some up their ass...lol....with a super red but from being smacked......spilling beer everywhere......beer can towers.....counting down the minutes till midnight.....having my first kiss of the year by the guy i love......going to hy-vee for some drunk and late night cravings.....going home and getting up early to go to work for 7 hours.....and then coming home and finally getting some sleep....thats what makes the best freakin nwe years...hell yeah.....

Also staying the next night with 3 of your best friends planing a trip to chicago and staying up to watching movies....wow....i had a really good weekend....and next weekend is gonna rock to....well im off to bed....its almost 10:30 and i have to get up at 5:30 and get ready for school...yes...cant wait....ok now im going.....leave some comments cause you love me to death....lol...ttyl...

Love ya :)

ok time for an update

christmas rocked my socks...i got a dog...and a computer...and then i got the most BEAUTIFUL necklace from michael...omg...i love him...thanks babe....plus im going to chicago with all my girls and i cant wait were gonna have so much fun and cause so much freakin trouble....like always.....but this was def the best christmas ever...and thanks to everyone, friends, family, and boyfriend....i had the best christmas because of all of you....and things get better and better...but on the down side i have to work the day after new years eve at 7 am.....uugh its gonna suck...but if i have a hangover to bad...if they sont like it they can send me home....i hope....but ohwell thats not gonna stop me from having an amazing night....wow i cant wait....so how was everyones christmas....well im off to bed.....leave some comments cause you no you love me to death.....lol...ttyl......

Love ya :)

hey

ok havent been on in awhile.....so hung out with the girls saturday...and had the time of my life.....god i missed them....took tons of picks....might put them up later....any who....went to the mall tonight with mike and also dog class.....but yeah ....one thing i have realized is that even though you are madly in love with someone you still can have times were you just dont feel like your close...but you just have to work at it like everything else in life and if you want it bad enough then it will work out....mike i love you and you are the most amazing guy in the whole wide world....times 2......lol....and so are my friends...i have known them since we were 3 and nomatter what they have been there for me and i couldnt ask for better friends....i love you guys and im here for you.....tears....ok so on a happy note.....christmas is getting closer and i still have some shopping to do...plus im going tanning for the first time EVER tomorrow and im excited....lol....now i wont look so much like a ghost....lol...so yeah well im off...leave tons of comments cause you all no you love me so much...lol....ttyl...

Love ya :)

hey everybody

oh yeah Happy Later Turkey Day....i ate so much i think i gained about 20 pounds...but then i think i walked it all off today shopping.....wow....there were so many ppl out shopping to day...havent finished my x-mas shopping but im getting there....all i have to say is i better get some good gifts this yar cause im spending money like crazy...lol...jp...but yeah.....this break has been great.....slept in till 11:30 wed. and then mike came over and we were gonna watch a movie but then my tv broke and so we just sat there and talked...oh yeah thanks mike for breaking my tv cause we had to go and get a new one....lol...jp baby.....then on turkey day i ate tons and tons of food....and saw some family.....then later that night we played Seen It...and let me tell you that is a freakin fun game.....then i went to the movies with mike and saw Harry Potter....which i have to say rocked my socks....lol...oh yeah and i saw kylie and her bf.....lol....then today i went shopping and got some gifts....and then went shopping with my aunt....and got some sushi.....which i would have to say was very good......and yeah....not feelin good right now...i think i have another bladder infection but i dont wanna tell my mom...cause she has enough on her mind and anibioticor however you spell it...are not cheap....and we just had to get a new tv and she just spent hella money on gifts....and she will think its bad and take me to the er and its not that bad and plus i hate the er....it really scares me....bad memories there.....but oh well....its all good...but im off....hope everyone enjoys the rest of the long weekend....leave some comments cause you love me....ttyl...

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